[Haruka pulls back, just slightly, stunned and... and he's not sure how he's feeling, honestly.
He knew that no matter what, Xiao would return to his home. He has to - he's got important reasons to return, and Haruka isn't sure he wants to leave Japan, either...
Or if they'll even get a choice.]
What... what are you saying?
[It feels so... final. The idea of not seeing Xiao again after this terrifies Haruka, even if he knows expecting things to work out perfectly and that Xiao will always be there when he wakes up in the morning is foolish. He should be used to this feeling, but this... is a new, different sort of pain. It's different then being thrown aside by Kujou, and it's different from Ryou throwing a tantrum and trying to break ZOOL for his own means. It's...
Xiao is someone who cares for him. Someone who actually wants him to be happy, but he doesn't want to think about being happy without Xiao. Could he actually move on? He knows he's young, and he's been drifting along with such little thought or plans for the future, that... Maybe he could, but does he want to? He can't imagine meeting anyone like Xiao in Tokyo, and he can't... He can't imagine meeting anyone he could talk to, about this. He can't just pretend this never happened, but everyone will think he's insane...
Telling him that he'll find a way to get to Haruka but that he should wait for him... It hurts.
Haruka looks down, falling silent, and starts to cry. He doesn't have any idea what to do, or say, or think, and the future is just as uncertain and terrible as when Touma asked him what he wanted to do all that time ago.]
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He knew that no matter what, Xiao would return to his home. He has to - he's got important reasons to return, and Haruka isn't sure he wants to leave Japan, either...
Or if they'll even get a choice.]
What... what are you saying?
[It feels so... final. The idea of not seeing Xiao again after this terrifies Haruka, even if he knows expecting things to work out perfectly and that Xiao will always be there when he wakes up in the morning is foolish. He should be used to this feeling, but this... is a new, different sort of pain. It's different then being thrown aside by Kujou, and it's different from Ryou throwing a tantrum and trying to break ZOOL for his own means. It's...
Xiao is someone who cares for him. Someone who actually wants him to be happy, but he doesn't want to think about being happy without Xiao. Could he actually move on? He knows he's young, and he's been drifting along with such little thought or plans for the future, that... Maybe he could, but does he want to? He can't imagine meeting anyone like Xiao in Tokyo, and he can't... He can't imagine meeting anyone he could talk to, about this. He can't just pretend this never happened, but everyone will think he's insane...
Telling him that he'll find a way to get to Haruka but that he should wait for him... It hurts.
Haruka looks down, falling silent, and starts to cry. He doesn't have any idea what to do, or say, or think, and the future is just as uncertain and terrible as when Touma asked him what he wanted to do all that time ago.]