[ Xiao lets out a quiet laugh at Haruka's empty threat, but when he looks at Haruka's expression, how he's trembling and looks like he might burst into tears, Xiao softens. He lifts a hand, gently wipes away any stray tears that may come from Haruka's eyes. ]
I am glad you're here, too.
[ Xiao's hand moves to rest on Haruka's cheek, gently caresses it. He's handling his partner with utmost care. ]
I will do everything I can to live, Haruka. I promise you that.
[ ... ]
I don't want to be without you. Even if there will come a time where I must be...that time isn't now. I want to be by your side, not just when things are going well -- I want to be there for everything.
[ He hates that he can't be there for every big moment of Haruka's life, that he will have to prioritize his duties over everything and everyone else, but he hopes that there will be a way in which they can see each other again. The thought of that time never coming, though, is what compels him to continue. ]
You have given me so much, Haruka. I don't know if I'll ever be able to repay you, for everything you've done for me. ... I just hope that loving you will suffice.
[Haruka blinks at Xiao, his words not quite registering. It's not that that make no sense - except they actually don't make any sense, do they? He understands what he's saying, but there's still a part of him that wonders why him, why now, he doesn't deserve anything like this even if love is something he's been missing and yearning for for so, so long.
"Love" isn't something he's ever had. His grandmother loves him, and his fans love the idea of him, but what he has with Xiao is entirely different. It feels a little silly, a little too dramatic, the thought of being so in love with someone he's only known for weeks, with a life he can hardly comprehend because it seems like something out of some game or anime, but Xiao is real and he's already put his life on the line for Haruka. Maybe it is possible to fall in love so quickly when you're put through impossible things and come out of them together.
He's overthinking things.
He is, but he can't help it, and he does actually start to cry. He's not sure if he's happy or sad or simply overwhelmed by every single thing that's happened in these past for weeks that this is all he can do in response. How embarrassing. His boyfriend just said he loves him and wants to be with him for as long as he can and Haruka is crying pathetically in front of him.]
Xiao...
[He takes a shuddery breath, trying to steady himself.]
You've done a lot for me, i-idiot. You saved my life.
[He won't forget his time in that horrible, monster-filled world any time soon.
He doesn't know what else to say. He's not like Touma, who can be so sincere it's embarrassing, but all he knows is he wants to be by Xiao's side even after they make it out of this place. (Which he prays they do, because he can't imagine making it through the final weeks were something to happen to Xiao.)]
Loving me is more then I could ask for, but I'm not about to let you go.
[ He feels himself soften when Haruka starts crying, and what he says gets Xiao to smile. He continues to brush Haruka's tears away with his thumb, and his other hand gently rubs his boyfriend's back. He moves in, not quite close enough to brush their lips together, but he wants to be in Haruka's orbit.
Gently, he brushes his lips over Haruka's forehead and his cheeks. He pulls back after, and gazes at him with that same smile on his face. ]
I will be here, for as long as I can. ... I love you.
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I am glad you're here, too.
[ Xiao's hand moves to rest on Haruka's cheek, gently caresses it. He's handling his partner with utmost care. ]
I will do everything I can to live, Haruka. I promise you that.
[ ... ]
I don't want to be without you. Even if there will come a time where I must be...that time isn't now. I want to be by your side, not just when things are going well -- I want to be there for everything.
[ He hates that he can't be there for every big moment of Haruka's life, that he will have to prioritize his duties over everything and everyone else, but he hopes that there will be a way in which they can see each other again. The thought of that time never coming, though, is what compels him to continue. ]
You have given me so much, Haruka. I don't know if I'll ever be able to repay you, for everything you've done for me. ... I just hope that loving you will suffice.
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"Love" isn't something he's ever had. His grandmother loves him, and his fans love the idea of him, but what he has with Xiao is entirely different. It feels a little silly, a little too dramatic, the thought of being so in love with someone he's only known for weeks, with a life he can hardly comprehend because it seems like something out of some game or anime, but Xiao is real and he's already put his life on the line for Haruka. Maybe it is possible to fall in love so quickly when you're put through impossible things and come out of them together.
He's overthinking things.
He is, but he can't help it, and he does actually start to cry. He's not sure if he's happy or sad or simply overwhelmed by every single thing that's happened in these past for weeks that this is all he can do in response. How embarrassing. His boyfriend just said he loves him and wants to be with him for as long as he can and Haruka is crying pathetically in front of him.]
Xiao...
[He takes a shuddery breath, trying to steady himself.]
You've done a lot for me, i-idiot. You saved my life.
[He won't forget his time in that horrible, monster-filled world any time soon.
He doesn't know what else to say. He's not like Touma, who can be so sincere it's embarrassing, but all he knows is he wants to be by Xiao's side even after they make it out of this place. (Which he prays they do, because he can't imagine making it through the final weeks were something to happen to Xiao.)]
Loving me is more then I could ask for, but I'm not about to let you go.
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[ He feels himself soften when Haruka starts crying, and what he says gets Xiao to smile. He continues to brush Haruka's tears away with his thumb, and his other hand gently rubs his boyfriend's back. He moves in, not quite close enough to brush their lips together, but he wants to be in Haruka's orbit.
Gently, he brushes his lips over Haruka's forehead and his cheeks. He pulls back after, and gazes at him with that same smile on his face. ]
I will be here, for as long as I can. ... I love you.