[It’s hard to admit to a near stranger, but this is… life and death, isn’t it? And it’s the one thing that’s always eaten at Haruka, the entire reason he even agreed to leave Japan with Kujou…]
I don’t want to be a burden on you.
[He wants to be protected - he’s not a complete idiot, but he’s too afraid of burdening Xiao and making things harder for him.
What if protecting Haruka puts Xiao in danger? Even if he’s saying it’s his duty, Haruka doesn’t know if he could actually live with himself if someone got hurt for his sake.]
Besides, maybe… nobody will believe them, so all of this talk is just entirely pointless? Haha…
It would be in your best interests to stop being so foolish.
[ There's a tinge of irritation in his voice, if only because he doesn't like how stubborn Haruka is being. Yet -- ]
Regardless...it is your choice. I won't press the issue any further; you must make the call yourself.
[ He's worried, but Xiao knows better than to pressure someone into making a decision like this. If Haruka has the will to survive, if he truly wants to live despite the circumstances they're under, then he will call Xiao when the time is right. ]
[He winces at that, curling in tighter on himself. Xiao's right, it would be stupid to not take the protection offered to him...
But he still feels guilty. At least, he thinks, it's just him here, and not one of the other members of ZOOL. The thought of them being in danger makes him feel even worse, even if they all might be better equipped at getting out of this alive.]
I'm sorry. I just...
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I don't want to die, and it's scary to know I might, but I don't... I don't want someone to get hurt because of me, either, but... i-if you're sure...
[ Although Xiao has long since let go of the fear of death, he understands that it can be daunting to many living beings. He won't give his life away haphazardly; if he dies protecting Haruka, it will mean something. Even if it gives Haruka only one more day to live, it will have been worth it. ]
I would not have offered if I wasn't certain. Send me a message through the device if you are in any danger.
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I don’t want to be a burden on you.
[He wants to be protected - he’s not a complete idiot, but he’s too afraid of burdening Xiao and making things harder for him.
What if protecting Haruka puts Xiao in danger? Even if he’s saying it’s his duty, Haruka doesn’t know if he could actually live with himself if someone got hurt for his sake.]
Besides, maybe… nobody will believe them, so all of this talk is just entirely pointless? Haha…
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[ There's a tinge of irritation in his voice, if only because he doesn't like how stubborn Haruka is being. Yet -- ]
Regardless...it is your choice. I won't press the issue any further; you must make the call yourself.
[ He's worried, but Xiao knows better than to pressure someone into making a decision like this. If Haruka has the will to survive, if he truly wants to live despite the circumstances they're under, then he will call Xiao when the time is right. ]
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But he still feels guilty. At least, he thinks, it's just him here, and not one of the other members of ZOOL. The thought of them being in danger makes him feel even worse, even if they all might be better equipped at getting out of this alive.]
I'm sorry. I just...
[...]
I don't want to die, and it's scary to know I might, but I don't... I don't want someone to get hurt because of me, either, but... i-if you're sure...
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[ Although Xiao has long since let go of the fear of death, he understands that it can be daunting to many living beings. He won't give his life away haphazardly; if he dies protecting Haruka, it will mean something. Even if it gives Haruka only one more day to live, it will have been worth it. ]
I would not have offered if I wasn't certain. Send me a message through the device if you are in any danger.
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There’s still a brief moment of hesitation, though.]
Is the phone really the best idea…?
[boomer]
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[ He doesn't elaborate on why, but there's something about his expression that shows that it's not entirely by choice. ]
Otherwise, I am in the "Dodo" room. Bear in mind that there are other residents, but I will be there in the late hours of the evening.
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[That look on his face... It's strange, and Haruka wants to press him on why he's looking at him like that, but... he lets it go.
For now, at least.]
Okay. Alright.
[He straightens up.]
If I need any help, I'll call you.